Time flies
04 May 2011 Leave a Comment
Hey Friends,
With RECOVERY comes LIFE, and let me tell you–LIFE gets busy! Just a minute ago I glanced over at my calendar thinking, “Hmm… May 4th…”, then BAM! suddenly I nearly shrieked, “It’s May FOURTH?!?!?! How did I almost miss this??!!” Today, May 4th, marks the TWO YEAR anniversary of the day I was discharged from my last residential treatment stay. What has happened? Some days it feels like two light years have passed, not just two calendar years. It all seems surreal, hard to comprehend. Like it was all just a bad, bad dream and now I am awake. Was that really me? Did all of that actually happen? The memories from those dark days only come in flashes and snippets. They can feel so incredibly haunting. I am grateful on some level they vanish as quick as they appear. Yet, these same memories, they are some of my best teachers. They remind me of that awful place that I choose to not revisit, that wounded person I don’t want to showcase. Although two years has brought me countless blessings, it has also brought its fair share of hurts and suckiness. The blessings and the suckiness, that IS LIFE. It downright sucks at times, but more often its phenomenally amazing. Have the past two years been perfect and smooth? Absolutely not. Yet, somehow, despite all of the lies the eating disorder ‘fed’ me, I am alive, I am still standing, and I remain firmly planted on solid ground. I have so much to live for. I have so much to be grateful for. This is where I choose to stay. THIS is my destiny. I AM SUPERWOMAN.
